I made a mistake at work two days ago. A real beginner mistake that I still feel embarrassed about. And I had the urge to beat myself up badly… even fire myself when my actual boss didn’t.
Instead, a question my therapist once asked me echoed in my mind:
Why can’t Yasmine make mistakes?
Why can’t I?
I asked myself that question while placing my hand on my heart… and I swear, I felt a tingle. Almost like a soft electric shock.
It hit deeply. Strongly. Beautifully.
My eyes filled with tears. And even though my heart didn’t give me the answer (not yet), I decided not to fight it.
I chose love instead.
Instead of interrogating myself.
Instead of blaming.
Instead of pressuring.
I stepped back and stopped forcing an answer.
I focused on what could help me avoid a similar mistake again.
I realized I had been multitasking for weeks. Not healthy multitasking. Stress-driven multitasking. The kind where you finish tasks while half-present on client meetings. Impulsive. Scattered. Draining.
So, I made a decision yesterday.
No more working that way.
I closed my extra browser tabs.
I put my phone away.
I focused on one task at a time.
Even when my ADHD brain wanted to jump ahead.
Even when it felt uncomfortable, even excruciating.
But I stayed.
And I am proud of myself for that.
Because that was an act of love.
And an act of acceptance.
My dear heart... take your time. You don’t have to give me all the answers right now. You don’t have to be perfect. We can go as slowly as you need to. 
What act of love does your heart need today?
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